Survival.seems to me nothing but a myth .Yap, its true. Suddenly nowadays I feel like ending up my world out in here just at this moment. It aches when you are not with your friend you know.it pokes when you cant touch your beloved.it burns inside when you cant get hold of the one you have loved so strongly in every moment of your life. it really pains ,it really pains a lot. It does interrupt u a lot when u r useless, unworthy and good for nothing.

May be someday will come when you will understand how it feels to wait for something that you are never going to get but still you have no ways to help yourself part from him. It simply hurts a lot, a lot.

When you eyes suddenly open in the deep sleep and only the curtain of the dark appears in front and none to pat u back for a relaxed sleep for the rest of the night. You feel lonely; you feel isolated. When you are struggling to get yourself a little self-help and a little self-respect and suddenly somebody close to you gives you a complement "selfish" your heart breaks. When from those mild hopeful innocent eyes a tear or two triples down the cheeks and no one raises fingers to wipe it aches again. It aches terribly.

days went on ,years passed but she waited to see the last of all these.she culdnt take it for granted that she was not more than his child but she again thought that he was married nd has a child isnt it her responsibility to ignore him even if hes intrested as shes also a women nd a daughter.the conflict never ended and nights made a shroud of discomfort for her.his word,his touch,his voice ,his love made her weak.she ate like an ant nd vomitted more than that but she culdnt help it as he was so much into her mind.

after a long time one day while she was drenched in his thoughs the phone rang.she picked it up nd hey it was him.for the time being she felt out of hell nd started to recover with each letter he uttered.no one knows what he spoke not even her.why?because it was too late for him to return nd say that hes fine with his family.by the time the girl had gone through stages where she had to make a clone of him in her deepest sea of tears gathering all the memories ,letters, words nd the remnents left by him.therefore it was so that his physical presence became useless to her.in absence of everybodys attention her beautiful shimmering eyes had a language which said that she had everything in her life and thanked the god for the incidents and the ability of bearing the heavy pain being gifted by him....

purdon me for the spelling mistakes

i hav been thinkin all these and sharin with you all only to tell you a story.

3yrs back a grl was chatin and since she was new she was amazed by the responses made by all boys at her name.she picked up any of her choice to flirt .suddenly she thought of choosin one and carry on chatin.she did so.

days passed ,thet became close chat friends and the grl found some sort of comfort in that man.one day she asked him to give his no...............................................after few days she called him nd to much surprise he ignored to recognize her.she felt strange as he used to write in chat so nicely like a friend.she didnt pay ny head to the voice that arose in her mind.

the grl liked his soothin voice so mice and comfortable and his words so elegant that soon they bcame gud friends.she asked him if he was married bt the boy instead proposed her.the grl was not at all ready for this as she wanted only a friend nd not a husband.she tried to make him undstand bt it was of no use as he kpt on forcin her.the grl felt herself to b so alone that when he threatned to sevre all ties wud her she accepted the proposal. ...

after abt 2 or 3 months them met each other. the grl was in true sence an ugly one compared to that man with 6 ft ht,muscles,gel drenched hair and manly look.the grl had nvr even thought that da man cud me like this and obviously felt proud becoz none of her frnds had such a hunk boyfrnd.she in her craziest of nightmares nvr thought of havin a boy friend who wud proove to be a bluff or like general man.she wanted security in her sub concious mind.

later that day when love emerger frm dormant state in her mind life became nothing bt a sorrow to her.the next day whn she called him...he was in jail

after a long time of about 15 days and countless seconds he was released..the grl waited till then.they met again and spoke uot that he was married nd havin a child.she stood speechless with a smil and asked him abt the childs age.she resisted her anger,grudge,lonelyness and tears.she had fallen in love with that bloke,that man who cheated her,the man who disregarded all her imotions.............

she made up her mind to love him more and more becauseit was not his physical appearence bt the words of flirtin that he used day nd night,the words with which he spoke the truth,the words which she were unexpected,the word which cud do a lot to hurt her with more painful stings.she acceptd it nd without thinkin of her own future did all to make her beloved happy........................